Hey guys, it's been a while.
I can't really go through everythig that happened to explained why i wasn't there in the last couple of months. Lets just say karma wasn't on my side and I had a couple problem to deal with. But i'm finally starting to see the lighter side of the ocean. You know when your drowning and you dont know if you're swimming towards certain death or towards the surface. Well I think i'm finally seing the surface now and i'm swimming as fast as I can to reach it.
Well enough of that, let's talk about the real reason why i'm writing today. It's my birthdaY! Well, it was, yesterday to be fair. And you know what i'm 24 I don't know what i'm doing with my life and... IT'S OK! I see all these people online with kids and houses, being married and happy at 22-23-24... and i'm here playing video games trying to work as much as I can to make some money and it's fine. I remember when i was 16 I thought I would have my career by now, that I would have a boyfriend and would be thinking about kids and getting married. And ohhhhh god was I wrong. I'm still so young and so naïve. I don't know how to adult yet, seriously why is it so hard to be an adult i wanna go out and have fun. Right now i decided it was time for me to stop chasing after boys, stop stalking tinder or whatever. I don't need anyone to make me happy, i need my friend and thats it. This year is the year where I take care of myself. I started dancing again which is awesome it makes me so happy after 5 years of doing jackshit i'm finally moving again. I purchased new strings for my guitar so I can make music again which is another passion I had give up on with an ex. Also i'm starting some groupe therapy for my borderline desorder i'm finally gonna work on that part of me too. And most of all I don't care about what others think of me anymore. I don't want kids for now, I don't want a boyfriend for now, i don't need this. I'm 24 and I live my 18th years again. I wanna be free, i wanna have fun and mostly I wanna be myself.
Moral of the story : don't ever let anyone tell you you're too old to be yourself and you should start thinking about getting married and finding someone or something. Don't let anyone tell you what to do with your life. If you dont want kids thats fine, if you wanna live forever young thats also fine... just do you boos!
I love you all so much and i'll see you soon
I even got the time to draw a mini collection just before my relapse, hope you guys like it